When a Beautiful Holiday turns into a diaster...
[dedicated to the HK victims from the bus hijack in Phillipines]
I hear the voices & laughters of excitment.
I hear the "zipping" sounds of holiday luggages.
A destination that was meant to be filled with sunshine & enjoyment,
A venue that was to capture those cheerful & relaxing moments.
A beautiful holiday it ought to be,
An ugly disaster we had unforeseen.
Sunshine beaches & shopping sprees,
Suddenly turned into a bus hijacked, gun shootings and life threatening pleas...
Lives that were taken could never be returned,
A tragedy that now creeps behind all tourists' shadows...
May the victims of the hijacked bus in phillipines rest in peace,
And that all law & order enforcers of the world bring in strategies so our minds could be at ease...
written 24/08/2010 by [Karephan]
If only I could fall back into you
I tried to find a way
I’m trying hard every day
Baby, please believe that I am
Trying to not go astray
If only I could fall back into you
I would do things a different way
I’ll cherish every bit of it
And not let our love fray
So baby, please take me back in time with you
And let all our previous steps undo
Hold firmly onto my hands
And guide me the way you want me to
Please baby, let me fall back into you
Don’t let us fall apart
Let your magic do its work
And find its way into my heart
Baby, I believe in you
I’ve come to a place I want to stay
If only I could fall back into you
Then it would be a fairytale come true
written 09/06/2010 by [karenphan]
You
Little bits here and there reminds me of you,
There were good times and theres bad,
It creeps discreetly by my side,
Reminding me of the special things I once had.
It hurts to have to move on,
saying goodbye was so painful,
I look back at my collection of our memories,
It felt so short but so meaningful.
From strangers, we became so close...
And from soulmates, the more distance,
we now reached the end of the road,
where i desperately wanted your riddance.
Im really sorry I made you upset,
I really hate myself for causing all this pain,
I didn't know why I stopped loving you,
All my secrets made me insane.
And so I had no choice but to leave,
I felt I was killing you,
With hands thats full of blood,
The Priceless and precious you deserves a love thats loyal and true....
written 21/03/2010 by [karenphan]
I'm Sorry
I use to think life was simple,
Growing up to find the perfect man,
To build a love nest with a happy ending,
Perhaps a baby or two in the plan.
A little girl's dream it once was,
Full of imaginations to anticipate,
Full of hopes and strict morality,
It is only now that I start to frustrate.
I'm Sorry I don't love you anymore,
I hate myself being this way,
I thought I'd love you forever,
I never thought I'd see this day.
I'm Sorry I am the way I am,
You remained so hopeful whenI go astray,
You disregarded my tampered history,
You simply just believed in me that we'd be okay.
I wanted to give you the world,
I wanted to fulfil those dreams,
I tried in every aspect,
But it wasn't as easy as it seems.
I'm sorry I dont know how to love you,
I regret causing you so much pain,
My heart is screaming in agony,
My soul is far from being sane.
My broken dream of a perfect family,
A vivid vision of my destiny,
A better woman I hope you find,
Our future together is a uncertainty.
written 06/02/2010 by [karenphan]
My Superman
You are my superman,
The one I always call,
For big things and small,
For guidance and all.
My dear superman,
You give and never ask for return
Making me laugh is your only concern,
In the dark you'd show me the lantern,
You provide me all i yearn.
My sweet hunnie that you are,
You would never let me scar,
You are my superman and shining star,
My dreams and knight in armour.
I love u superman,
You gave me patience,
You gave me encouragement
You gave me appreciation.
I'm all showered with love,
My child dreams came true,
To meet a man of my dreams,
And that Superman was you...
written 31/01/2010 by [karenphan]
Goodbye my love
Good bye my love
Hopelessness and dreams gone astray,
Secluded feelings walking away
Almost together,
Almost forever,
Inevitable reality both cannot deny,
They weren’t meant for each other
If only they had met earlier,
At the right place at the right time
They would have never had such predestination,
Instead a day for commemoration
They now resort to another alternative,
An alternative well protected,
To love each other in a brand new way
To love without gesture or to say
written 18/11/2009 by [karenphan]
When it hurts to be loved
When your enemy is yourself,
You feel hopeless,
You feel doubtful,
You feel nothing by spiteful.
You are like the perpetrator,
Feeling insecured,
Feeling abandoned,
Feeling nothing but threatened.
But try stepping into the shoes of the victim,
She's suffocated,
She feels violated,
Feeling souless and incarcerated.
So would you set one free,
You feel the liberty,
You feel the tranquility,
You will feel all enlightment from internally.
written 1/08/2009 by [karenphan]
Lost & Found
Met you by surprise,
I did not realise.
And now you're about to change my life forever.
You were sitting there,
I did not think you'd care,
But it seems we had been predestined together.
You picked me up from where I fell,
You made me sane and away from hell.
You showed me what it meant to 'love each other'.
So I'd like to tell you this now - the often temperamental you,
That the liitle and big things that you do,
Has me head over heels for you.
In the beginning I was afraid to start,
I'd lose a good friend if it was to end.
And its only now I've come to appreciate "to lose a friend for a life-long partner".
written 25/05/2009 by [karenphan]
Confessions of a liar
Bottling it up inside,
No where else for it to hide.
The confessions of a liar,
The burdens one's cried.
Resentment of what's been committed.
Addictions become compulsive.
Apologetic and afraid,
That such behaviour becoming destructive.
A trail of frightful memories left behind,
Searching for the awakening voice above,
For guidance to the way to purity,
To treat one right and to love.
written 14/04/2009 by [karenphan]
Prisoner of Love - Inspired by japanese soapie "Last friends"
Through the hardships I've survived,
And the excruciating pain I've lived,
Chasing after a shadow of love,
That I can not conceive.
Struggles to see the light,
Wreckless avenues to tranquilize,
The cruelty of reality that is to confront,
The truth about your love I am to realize.
I'm not just a prisoner of love,
Incarcerated away with just us two,
Trapped under surveilance,
A lethal penalty in being with you.
I shall not be deemed to mistreatment,
Tied at the feet to you...
I'm gonna be liberated,
Its gonna Stop now here with you.
written 20/12/2008 by [karenphan]
Awaken
Unforgettable moments,
Indescibable feelings,
The intangible you,
leaving me without a clue.
The exposed certainty,
An awaken dream,
That the moments of pleasure,
was perhaps simply for leisure.
A confused state,
The dithering mind,
My destinctive nature - that leaves me blue,
That's being torn between the two.
The essential departure,
A stance you may have taken.
Your unwanted absence,
My embedded experience.
written 16/11/2008 by [karenphan]
I will fly~~
Like the sands in an hourglass,
Time has crept by silently.
No more remorseful feelings to bear,
No more brutal thoughts manifesting astonishingly.
We've become whom we ought to be,
And met those we were to see.
Destiny is yet to await us,
A Fallen Angel or Enlightened demon I may be.
I've now come to understand,
I'm the one who paints my picture.
I’m the one to add colour,
Or to have it remained colourless with its fissure.
I may not be able to salvage a painting that’s discoloured.
The past has torn me up and made me cry,
But I’m about to spread my wings again,
And let myself gracefully; abscond into the sky.
written 08/10/2008 by [karenphan]
The Girl in the mirror
She always feared his absence,
For he seemed like a 'miracle' that had appear.
Two years of persistence and struggle,
Her insecurities haunted her - it would not disappear.
His indecisive nature, his countless lies,
The unrequited love - it stained her life.
A sea of tears he made her cry,
A scarring wound - she was told she was bad at being woman let alone, a wife.
She intoxicated herself 'cos she couldnt handle being sober,
She cried to sleep 'cos it was too painful to be awake,
she self decieved 'cos it was the only way,
And finally - she got really sick with a bad flu, everything ached.
Her self-destruction, her sleepless nights,
A delusional nature - that ended the oppressive affair.
A bleeding relationship she made him see,
And a ever last hug and 'Good bye' she was forced to share.
written 02/05/2008 by [karenphan]
Fallen
Love: begins with a smile,
And ends with a tear...
I guess I wasn’t good enough,
For this reason I was dropped rough.
I still remember the times when u made me upset,
I cried, I screamed.
Your secret - the sweetest dimple,
To you, it was so simple.
I thought we had so much ahead of us,
I had not imagined a beautiful photo has lost its colour.
Precious dreams broken,
A critical line spoken.
I still lie awake, sleepless nights,
Thinking what had happen,
Thinking what had gone wrong,
Reminiscing on our song...
I pretend you only went on a long business trip,
I make believe you will call me soon.
I recite to myself each night that you think of me still,
I fall asleep thinking you will…
Only you can make me stronger,
Only your voice would wake me up.
Only your touch can make me feel,
Only your heart would make me heal…
Coz now, I’m all broken,
My heart- all stolen
My body, all taken…
My soul, all fallen…
written 22/01/2008 by [karenphan]
Buried in Quicksand
My mind’s like a cascade of thoughts,
A decision is to be made,
What am I to do?
For things are no longer permanent like a tattoo
Tough and strong I appear,
Bright and witty I may seem,
Has anyone ever see me through?
Because I’m really just another piece of delicate tofu
I feel it all escalate inside me,
Like a kettle, the bubbles accumulates
Like a timer, it will soon set off an alarm.
An alarm not to warn, but one that can cause only detrimental harm
written 3/11/2007 by [karenphan]
